How well are we??

After 6 years of being a shepherd to the Catholic Students in the TARC or rather TAR UC as what it is now, I received many affirmations from the students, parents, priests, church friends and leaders and most recently someone just told me that even in the Major Seminary in Penang that people are talking about us or rather... Me...

I've been working with the students closely, diligently and carefully these years and out of the blue, I'm sitting down tonight to wonder how good am I or how good are we?

Perhaps I only have missions without thinking of any harvest? Or more accurate than not... With the CSS that I received in hand 6 years back which was almost empty, I dare not even dream of any harvest. The problem that arise tonight is should I even think about hervest that to me sounded very circular.

Pausing here after 6 years, I really don't see that we are good. Of course we are getting better but are we too far from good? What is the measurement for good?

At the final sharing of our recent annual camp, I have miraculously not crying. Not that I don't feel anymore sentiment after seeing the growth of my kids, my mind just doesn't flash back those touching memories as it used to be. What is rotating in my mind at that time was what am I or rather what are we going to do next. With the overwhelming number of participants that we have, how are we going to bring them nearer to God?

As a foolish servant of The Lord ( I wish I'm still one) I need wisdom. I need prayer. I need more faith and confidence. 

The bigger this home away from home is ever growing, the smaller I became in my own vision.

My soul is shouting... HELP...!!!!